I was woken up at 3 o’clock
in the morning by a mysterious, mischievous and wonderful stranger. Yet at that moment in time I never realized
that the stranger would leave such an impression upon me.
I greeted the
individual into my home and was unaware of what would happen next. All I knew was that moment where there was no
one but both of us. We drank away as we comfortably spoke to each other. In this deep conversation we never realised the first ray of sunlight slowly poured through the window.
Many people say
miracles do not exist but for me I would define this as a sweet miracle. Here
we sat opposite each other and I was taught how truly blessed I was. For this
was a part of my inner soul showing me my true self.
I always imagined my
inner self would be ugly to the core but now I saw a beauty that I never knew
existed within me. This reflection in front of me was beyond my existence and
imagination. For the stranger who sat
across me was the true nature of fear and love.
The stranger was well
aware of all the glorious possibilities in life that would make it brighter,
sweeter and serene. This magnificent development would truly make life celestial
and lovable.
However amongst this
was one core dark element which was wrapped up and creeping into every breath
of life; that was fear. There was fear
of what if, the fear of being alone, the fear of being lied to, the fear of
people saying no when asking for help, the fear of not being loved if one is unable
to provide financial support, the fear of no one caring. Self sabotaging doubts
were killing the love of life.
Here I was talking to
a reflection of mine on how fear was consuming the mind, heart and the soul. These
fears were simply excuses as the path of a loving life was considered a fairy
tale. The harsh realities of life and circumstances were eating into all the
good thoughts like rats.
Words and phrases such
as “I don’t know”, “It’s too hard”, “Maybe”, "I'll try" and “I am scared” were rotting away
into every dream and aspiration of life.
For it seemed to have a loving and happy life the focus and priority should
be on money.
It is this money that
will give security, love from loved love ones, a roof on the head, food,
medical assistance, luxury, entertainment, respect from others and maybe more. It is as life is only about acquisition and
transaction of money. Even the relationships we have our now measured in terms
of money. For everything is now being weighed with money.
The estimated
population of the world is over 7 billion. Amongst these billions of people there
are many who have broken away from such a pathetic way of thinking. They have
used fear as energy to create positive outcomes. They have shifted and transformed from this
mentality into a mentality of “I can do it”.
And just like Nike says they have applied the tag line of “Just do it”
to themselves. They have stopped waiting
for life to happen or their life to be given to them.
These
individuals have shifted the emotion of fear being an unpleasant emotion caused
by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or
a threat to:
- False
Evidence Appearing Real
- Feeling
Excited Adventurous Read
- Forget
Everything And Refocus
- Face
Everything And Rise
These individuals
still feel fear however they have learned to shift from the conventional
thinking of negativity to positivity. As humans you love to have self pity yet
this is a ridiculous notion that has no productivity for our inner self. Your
thoughts frame your life. It is your thinking that determines your reaction and
action to situations and interpretation of events. Yet you easily blame circumstances
rather than looking into your thinking patterns.
My mysterious,
mischievous and wonderful stranger you have a choice to make. Decide where you want
to spend your time, effort & energy.
Would you like to spend it in a loving life or fearful life? What outcome
do you want from your life, a loving life or fearful life?
Taking 100% responsibility for your life experience is the shift that you need to develop.
You know that the path your are taking is the wrong one, a path of the
victim mentality. It is the easy way out and is a temporary solution to your
challenges in life that will leave painful scares on your mind, heart and soul.
You are human made of
flesh, blood and pain. So, you will make mistakes on the way but that does not
mean that you keep walking the path of your mistakes. Yet you have a mind,
heart and soul that are energized by truly loving yourself and learning from
these mistakes. You are allowed to change your path out of your own freewill;
you have to do it yourself.
This reflection of
mine it is time for you to take the step towards being creative about your
life. When you truly love your own life then you will make the right choice. Stop
numbing your emotions and release the pain. You are truly blessed and you know
it. Take these blessings and stop self sabotaging your true essence of loving yourself
truly. Remember there will be only be handful few out there that will support you
and will request you to amend your ways (and these individuals will be difficult
to come across).
Self abuse or getting
abused by others physically, mentally or emotionally will lead you in making
choices for which you will never forgive yourself. You may not show or talk
about regrets, rejections and resentments that you hold within yourself yet they
will flow throughout your body like poison ivy and you would consider your existence
a bad joke. This sacrifice to fulfill the needs, wants and pleasures of others (and somewhat your own) is consuming your mind, heart, body and soul into a living "hell" and you already feel this. The true nature of the cardinal sins are being committed and have been sugar coated as ways of supporting yours and others life.
Ask yourself the
question “what do I truly want for myself?” This is YOUR LIFE, stop being second-rate and humiliating
yourself to yourself. You have the power of freewill to make a choice for the good of yourself and to truly love yourself. Now is the time to let go of the piercing pain in your heart and live your true life.
So, Mysterious, Mischievous & Wonderful Stranger I was in deep thoughts when I came across a metaphor of life from Pastor RickWarren stating life is like a game of poker. 
It is said
that your beliefs and values play a great part in the choices you make. These beliefs
and values you learn from your parents, elders, family, schooling, friends and
society. You find it difficult to understand why you made some strange and painful choices; it was
as if your thoughts strongly believed that the steps you took were the only
actions that would allow you get to your outcomes.
